Scared Kaitlyn, Happy Twister

Yesterday was my dr. day, it was the first time I've been in 3 weeks. After I had my little relapse and lost a lot of weight, but then after going back the next week and gaining a little back they let me wait 2 weeks to go back. But, Mrs. Teresa's mom's funeral was the Tuesday that I was suppose to go. So, anyway I haven't been in 3 weeks....
It didn't go very well, at all. I actually lost more weight. Dr. S (my medical dr., her name is hard to spell so we'll call her Dr. S!) said if I lost 2 more lbs. she is going to consider hospitalization again. I am scared, very scared. Now Twister, he is so excited. He loves pushing me to my breaking point (literally). He wants to see if I can get hospitalized again..... I had to stop working out for right now. I am very upset about that. Also, she put me back to weekly till I really get back on track. How have I gotten back to this point? I don't want to go back to the hospital. I am really going to try. Someone was telling me about the message at the Basement last night, they were talking about living everyday like it's your last because you never really know when God will call you home or when He will return. If today is my last day on this earth, why would I want to spend it worrying about weight and my body? Those things are worthless! I need to be doing all I can to serve my Savior and become the person He created me to be. I'm asking God to help me keep this mindset daily... it's something we should all be thinking about.

I took the shirts I designed to my nurses at the hospital yesterday before we went to the clinic. It was really weird to be back there and see all their faces! I have to say, it was much better to be on the other side!!!! They all loved the shirts and they remembered me!!! I was excited about that. They are all so wonderful!! They have no idea how much they mean to me.