Go away RAIN!!!

So we're at the beach but it's pouring down rain! It has been all day....it was nice yesterday and actually pretty warm, but it's been horrible today :( we've still had fun though. We have swam in the indoor heated pool. I made a very big step today. I'm wearing a 2 piece swim suit. I really struggled with it last night because I didn't know which one to wear and I was stressing. But, I'm trying to have fun and enjoy this spring break. Believe me, that was very hard to do. VERY VERY difficult! I got through it, it was only through God though! But I've been doing good with eating, still struggling especially since we usually go out and eat for dinner, but God is getting me through.

Last night we went to the store to get food and I saw a girl who was very small. She looked like she may have her own Ed and it really made me just want to turn back. When I see someone skinny like that, it makes me want to go back and see how small I can get. It was frustrating. Mama had a talk with me about how I always compare myself to other girls. She says I really need to try and stop, but it's hard. I've been doing it for so long! Twister has totally ruined my life.