Stronger

After Ignite Friday, I have been so much stronger. Nick spoke an awesome message, and the drama was amazing... it was what really got to me! They did "Everything" by Lifehouse. It was basically a girl, and in the beginning she was really close to God, she was walking with Him and experiencing the wonderful life He gave her. But then, things started getting between her and God..relationships, alcohol, drugs, cutting, and eating disorders. Of course, you know which part spoke to me! Then, she tried to get back to God, but all these things kept keeping her away... then finally, at her weakest point, when she was down on her knees, God came and fought all those things away. I want God to be my everything, I'm tired of Twister being my everything. I want God to be the center of my life, I want Him to be my reason for living. I went up to the alter and prayed, since Friday night I've felt more strength to carry on in my recovery. Ignite has helped me so much, I'm so excited they started it!!! :]

Today in Sunday School we were talking about sin. We talked about how some people think some sins are worse than others... but in reality, all sins are the same. God hates sin, plain and simple. He loves the sinner, but hates the sin. In God's eyes, murdering someone and lying to someone is the exact same thing. It's still sinning against God. Yes, there is different consequences, but the sin is still the same.
My eating disorder is a sin. When God said not to worship any other god's before Him. We think that just means bowing down to other idols. But thats not the only way we can commit that sin. Anything that takes our time away from worshiping God is our idol. For me, it's my eating disorder. I spent (and sometimes I still do, I am defiently not fully recovered yet) all my time thinking about my weight, food and exercise... that was idoling my body, idoling Twister. I've realized that and I've confessed to God that I've sinned, I've asked for His forgiveness. And He's such a wonderful God, that I know he forgave me, I know I will keep sinning, but I also know He will always forgive me when I confess and ask for His forgiveness. For some of you your idol may be a sport, a TV show, anything that is taking the place of God in your life is your idol. But the only way you can live your life happily, the only way to enjoy the life that our amazing God has given you, is to serve and worship Him, and Him only.