it's August!

Wow, it's hard to believe it's already August! Where did the summer go?
Since Friday I have been doing really bad... I've been skipping meals and snacks here and there, I've just really been getting back into my old habits. But, I've gotten a little bit stronger. I met with my therapist yesterday, that always helps... so I have been doing better. I still don't want to eat, I really wish I could recover without that part, but I know to become healthy and get my life back I have to eat. I know God's hand is right here, waiting for me. But, sometimes I think I'm scared... I am kind of scared to let go of Twister... as much as I hate to admit it, I think I am still holding onto Twister a little bit. Why can't I just let go? I so desperately need God's strength now, I need Him to strengthen and comfort me.