Pleasing Twister

Ok, first I'll let you know how Dr. day went.
I did gain some of the weight back (i don't know how much, they didn't tell me), I don't think I gained 1/2 of it back like they wanted because they didn't add another day to my exercise. They are letting me go back to only going every other week, I think they just put me back to every week since I had dropped that much weight in a short amount of time. As for me, I'm still struggling. Me and Twister have been really arguing the past few days... all day!

I feel like I need to say something, and mostly it's to please Twister...
I (or twister?) have been feeling like everyone thinks that I am recovered now, and that I'm well. And, for some reason I don't want yall to think that. I may not be skinny anymore, but I still struggle daily. Every single time I have to put something in my mouth it's a struggle. Sometimes I really fight through it and it's not as much of a struggle, but other times it's like I want to cry because I feel so overwhelmed. I was really debating on whether to write this or not, but I just felt like I should (Twister was really pushing me). I actually feel a little bit selfish for feeling like this, but I guess the point of my blog is to share my thoughts and feelings! So, I guess the whole thing I (or twister) wanted to get across, is that I am not recovered. I still have an eating disorder.