I did gain yesterday... a lot more than I wanted to. I have really been freaking out about it and haven't done very good today. I would have been ok with gaining weight, it's just the fact that I gained so much thats scared me. Bonnie (my nutritionist) said it's probably just a rebound and it's a lot of fluid, that if I stay on my meal plan this week I probably won't gain that much. But I still keep hearing that number in my head, all last night and all day today.
I am going to start taking some medication that will hopefully help my obsessiveness and my anxiety. They are hoping this will give me a boost to fight and stay in the right direction. They are wanting the treatment center to be the last possible option and that's fine with me.
I haven't done good today..... Twister is attacking me so much. I feel so controlled by him.
My daily verse:
"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:6-7..... It's so simple, yet I make it so difficult.
Hey! I know this is ydays post but Im so glad I got to meet you tonight! We are going to have so much fun with SCARRED!! This drama is going to be so good..i just hope we dont get hurt! haha..But I was just going to say hey and that I am praying for you and really excited about getting to know you more!! :)
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