Happy New Year!!!!

I am SO SO sorry for not posting in forever!!!!!!!
I have had so much going on lately, I just really haven't had time.

I've been doing good. I had a set back Saturday, Sunday and Monday but I've gotten back on track and I'm doing better. We canceled my appointment with the clinic last week because of all the Christmas shopping traffic that we would run into... and they are closed this week. So when I go back next week it will have been 3 weeks since I've went. I'm a little nervous about it. Just because I started working out and then I don't go until 3 weeks. I'm just really really hoping I haven't lost weight and they make me quit working out.

I can't believe it's 2009!!! The verse I sent out yesterday was this, "Your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying 'This is the way, walk in it.'" Isaiah 30:21. 2008 was a very tough year. I went through alot. Last year, I mostly listened to Twister's voice and not God's. The voice behind me was Twister's and I listened to him and went where he wanted me to go, ignoring God. I want 2009 to be different. I want to listen to God's voice. I want to follow Him. I know I will still listen to Twister every once in a while, but last year wasn't the best when I was listening to him. I think it will be a much better year if I listen to God and walk in the way He tells me to. I know He has a great plan for me, I don't know what it is. But I pray that in 2009 it will start to unfold. That I will quit living in my Ed shell with Twister and follow God's plan for me. I want to let go of Twister and this life I've been living and let God take over. Let go, and let God.

My therapist told me something a few weeks ago that I have really been thinking about when I'm struggling and don't want to eat. It's really helped, thanks Dr. V!!!! God didn't send His one and only Son to die on a cross so that I would starve myself to be skinny.