Free....

"Then you will know the truth and the truth will set you free." John 8:32. Yesterday I went ot the clinic I gained, and I'm not going back til 2 weeks. This freaked me out. I felt confusion and temptation take my hand. I heard Twister say "Come on, we got two weeks. Let's have some fun." I also heard him say "Your not going back til two weeks? You really must have gained a lot of weight." I seriously thought about turning around and freaking out. I went to the Basement last night and the message was on "24". What would you do if you only had 24 hours left to live. This hit me. I mean, what if today is my last day? I don't want to spend it worrying about my weight, how much I will allow myself to eat and when I can sneak in exercise. With this short time I have here on this earth, I want to make it worth something. This brings me to my verse from yesterday, "What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes."James 4:14.I thought it was pretty weird how that was my verse for yesterday and then the message at the Basement was a lot along the same lines. But anyway, this life is going to be over before we know it.

Our life is like a vapor. I don't know if I will wake up tomorrow. All I have is today. This short time I have here, I want to make worth something. I want to live this life. I want to wake up and follow my Savior. Last night was awesome, you know it was like I said to God, "Ok, I've been asleep too long. It's time to wake up, it's time to live. I'm coming, I'm ready." I want to live, I want to make my life worth something. I don't want to have my life be consumed with weight, size, food, and exercise.

Now, back to the verse I first mentioned,John 8:32, this was today's verse. Like I said, yesterday I felt confusion and temptation take my hand. I felt Twister take my hand. And for a little while I was willing to follow. But God reminded me of this verse while we were doing praie and worship last night. He can set me free. When I take His hand, the hand of peace, grace, and truth, the lies start falling off. When I grab my Savior's hand He'll make all that confusion and the lies I feel surrounded by, break off. I can be free to live for Him.