Again?

I went to the clinic today and this is the first time I've been in a month. I have been sick the last few days with what I thought was the flu, but went to the dr. Friday and they said it was a severe throat infection.

Anyway...about the clinic. I got in trouble. It didn't go very well. I lost 3 lbs. Bonnie cut down my exercise and I'm going back in two weeks. I going to be honest. I've slipped back into some of my old habits these last few days. I've had a lot going on and been hit with a lot of stress, so Twister took over a little :/

Am I really slipping back into another relapse? I'm praying I am not. I have came too far. It scares me because the last time I started loosing weight and slipping, I wasn't able to stop myself. Bonnie and Dr. Sturdevant are very concerned about my this new obsession I have developed about working out. They are also very concerned about me not being able to stop measuring. I'm a little overwhelmed tonight.
I so desperately need the hand of my Savior right now...for He alone holds the strength I need to get through this daily fight. For He is the only One to make me strong, and KEEP me strong.

I'm asking for everyone's prayers right now. I do not want to turn around now, I have came way too far. I do not want to be admitted to a treatment center, I want to pursue the life my Lord and Savior has planned for me. I know it's my choice, it's ultimately in my hands as to how I handle all of this. I just know the power of prayer, and right now I'm desperately needing it.

"Jesus will keep you strong until the end so that there will be no wrong in you on the day our Lord Jesus Christ comes again.." 1 Corinthians 1:8