Never good enough/2 new songs

I thought about something today..... Since I know that I will never be good enough for Twister, I will never be thin enough, I will never get down to a weight that is good enough for him, I will never go into the hospital enough times, my eating disorder will never be "bad" enough, I will never be perfect enough. Then why am I trying so hard? What am I really trying to do if I know it will never be good enough?

Today has been ok. I'm still not doing very well, I'm still struggling really bad. I've been trying to work through it and eat what I have to, but at times I just can't. The past 2 and a half weeks there's been more "I just can't" moments rather than fighting through moments.

I added 2 new songs. The first one is "By your side". I heard it the other morning when I was getting ready and I really liked it, but I couldn't think of the name of it. I looked everywhere for it! But I heard it again this morning and I figured out the name. The other one is by the same band and it's called "Let it go", I just found it when I was adding "By your side" and I thought it was pretty good. Music has played a big part in my recovery, there are just some songs that sound like they were written to help me in recovery, it sounds weird I know, but it really helps me when I hear an encouraging song to help me get through those really tough times.