Little bit overwhelmed....

Sorry for not posting about the clinic earlier!
I gained about a pound. At first I didn't know how they would like it, being that it had been 3 weeks since I had been. But they were ok with it. I can still work out. And actually they are letting me start working on some cheerleading jumps. Then, the next step will be jogging/running, and then back to cheerleading. Bonnie wants me to quit measuring breakfast all together, and they moved me to 2-3 weeks. How am I feeling about all of this? A little overwhelmed. I feel like it's a lot coming at me.This was the point last time where I relapsed and almost ended up back in the hospital or in a treatment center. Bonnie told me that the reason she was pushing me so hard was because I have been going the clinic for 10, almost 11 months and it was either time for me to really start getting well or I needed more help than they can give me. Which means the treatment center out of state.

I've done pretty good the last few days....
This was my verse yesterday. I know it was God speaking right at me, and I was kind of running from it because I know what He was doing.
"Endure hardships with us like a good soldier of Christ Jesus." 2 Timothy 2:3...We are soldiers for Christ. When the battle gets hard we have to make the choice to either back down and surrender to the enemy, or we fight stronger and harder. We have to be strong. We are on a winning team but we still have battles to fight. When hardships come we can't give up, we have to fight harder. I have the problem of backing down when it gets really hard and just surrendering to Twister, even when I know I shouldn't. I know I need to fight harder.....but I don't always. I know that God was speaking to me loud and clear yesterday but I don't know if I listened to Him or if I ran, as much as I hate to admit it. I'm not the strongest soldier yet.