Ed's and the Bible

Last night I was watching videos on Tangle and I happened to search eating disorders. I came across an interview with a woman who had struggled with anorexia and then bulimia. She was talking about some scriptures that she found that she feels relates to Ed's. Since anorexia and bulimia are medical terms there isn't going to be things in the Bible that says "So and so was anorexic." The first one is found in Proverbs...she relates this one to bulimia:

"Food gained by fraud tastes sweet to a man, but he ends up with a mouth full of gravel." Proverbs 20:17. She said it's a lot like when bulimics binge and then when they purge it ruins their teeth. Bulimics have a lot of dental problems from all the purging. The next one she talked about really spoke to me. She said that from some things that were said in 1 Samuel makes her believe that Hannah (Samuel's mother) struggled with anorexia and that's why she was not able to become pregnant for a while. I read the first two chapters in 1 Samuel and I came across one verse that really seemed like maybe she did struggle with eating. "This went on year after year. Whenever Hannah went up to the house of the Lord, her rival provoked her till she wept and would not eat." 1 Samuel 1:7. This is from another translation, "...Hannah began crying and refused to eat.". Twister pushes me and pushes me, there have been many times I've cried. I can't tell you how many meltdowns I've had because I knew I needed to eat but Twister was screaming in my ear. When he pushes me, I usually give into him. I don't eat, or I compromise. But then, towards the end of the chapter she begged God to give her a son, and then Eli told her to go in peace and God would give her what she asked. Then it says this, "Then she went her way and ate something and her face was no longer downcast." (1 Samuel 1:18). I never thought that people back then would have actually struggled with the things I struggle with today. I now feel as if I can really relate to someone in the Bible!

Here is the video's if any of you would like to watch them!http://www.tangle.com/view_video.php?viewkey=b5df676461b7359ca349

http://www.tangle.com/view_video.php?viewkey=a2ac5f4a8c1d4174c5ce

Today has been pretty good. It's very busy because we are trying to get ready to leave for the beach and I haven't even packed yet!! But I'm doing about the same. Something I'm trying to do is when Twister starts talking to me and says stuff like "Your fat." "Why are you eating when your not even hungry?" "Oh my gosh, you can't even see your ribs anymore!" "Your eating and your not working out, your going to be so huge!". What I have decided to do is when I hear him, I'm going to praise God. Even if it's just saying "I love you God." Something to put God in front of Twister (with Satan who is ultimately behind him). Tell Twister & Satan to get behind me and ask God to get in front of me. I used it today...I was struggling to eat lunch, but I said "I love you God. You are amazing. I will praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made." He got me through lunch!

I hope everyone has a very fun and safe spring break!!! Love yall...