Radiant, throbbing heart/Lies

"Then you will look and be radiant, your heart will throb and swell with joy." Isaiah 60:5. We have to give up. We have to stop wandering in the dark and just give up. Look up to our Savior and let His amazing, radiant light shine upon us. Once we do, our heart won't throb with the pain, struggles and temptations we go through. It will throb and swell with the joy, love and strength of our Lord. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this, but I'm doing an online Bible study course. The website is http://www.settingcaptivesfree.com/. They have a Bible study for girls with anorexia and/or bulimia. It's called In His Image...I've been doing it for a few days now and it's really opened my eyes to a lot of things. Today the lesson was on the Truth Setting You Free. Kind of funny that I posted about that not long ago! Haha.. But anyways, it told me to list some of the lies that I believe. Whether I think they may be lies or I'm not sure, just to make a list.

Here's are the first few I thought of:

1) I have to be skinny to recieve attention.

2)I have to be skinny to be "special".

3) People will notice me if my appearance looks good.

4) I have to be perfect for anyone to accept me.

5)When I get stressed or something goes wrong, starving and/or exercise will control it.

6) I have to go to major extremes for my ED to be "bad enough".

7) I will never be pretty enough for anyone.

8) I have to be skinny, no matter what it costs.

This was hard, because it was facing those lies head on. It was really looking deep down and seeing what lies I've really been believing.

Then, it talked about how Satan is behind all these lies and how is native language his lying. He never tells the truth. He takes every little thing, every truth and turns it around and makes it into a lie. He's been doing it since the begining of time, remember what he told Eve, "'Your will not surely die,' the serpent said to the woman. 'For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.'" (Genesis 3:4-5) That is not what God told Adam and Eve. Satan has been lying since then and will keep lying. Then, it went on to say that God can't lie. Notice it's not even that He doesn't want to, God can't lie! How amazing is that? I mean someone that we can totally trust. He will never ever lie to us, "...it is impossible for God to lie," (Hebrews 6:18).

He doesn't lie to us. He doesn't tell us stuff so that we'll do something for Him, He teaches us the truth. But, it's our choice to listen to it and obey it. "Teacher, we know that you tell the truth. You don't favor individuals because of who they are. Rather, you teach the way of God truthfully. "(Mark 12:14).

They stated this verse that really spoke to me, "Turn me away from a life of lies. Graciously provide me with your teachings." (Psalms 119:29). I'm tired of believing all these lies. And the thing is, I pretty much know what the truth is. I know God's word, and I know what He says about me. But for some reason I choose to believe Satan(& Twister)'s lies. I'm praying that God will turn me away from all these lies and allow me to see His truth. To grab His hand and listen, as well as follow, His teachings.

"So Jesus said to those Jews who believed in him, 'If you live by what I say, you are truly my disciples.You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.'" -John 8:31-32