Anyway.... I went to my psychiatrist Wednesday and she decided not to up my dosage yet. She said we may have to once I get out of school because all my "structure" would be gone and I wouldn't really have a schedule. So...for now I'm still on the same dosage.
Ok, get ready, I've got quite a bit of stuff to write about!!!!
When I signed up for that online Bible study, I received a personal mentor that goes over all the questions in my lesson. All of the mentors have had an eating disorder and have been through the same study. These are the truths that she defended to my lies that I believe.:
"I have to be skinny to receive attention" "I have to be skinny to be 'special'"
Truth: Your worth is in who God says you are. He made you in His own image, so he values you highly! "But the very hairs of your head are numbered. Do you not fear therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows" -- Luke 12:7 NKJV
Truth: Your worth is in who God says you are. He made you in His own image, so he values you highly! "But the very hairs of your head are numbered. Do you not fear therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows" -- Luke 12:7 NKJV
"People will notice me if my appearance looks good"
Truth: Prideful thoughts lead to a fall, but God is near to the humble in heart. He purchased you at a high price, and doesn't want you to be enslaved by the world. "How do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul in the process? Is anything worth more than your soul?" Matthew 16:26
Truth: Prideful thoughts lead to a fall, but God is near to the humble in heart. He purchased you at a high price, and doesn't want you to be enslaved by the world. "How do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul in the process? Is anything worth more than your soul?" Matthew 16:26
"When I get stressed or something goes wrong, starving and/or exercise will control it"
Truth: Starving may give the false impression of control over stress or circumstances, but that is a lie from the devil who comes only to steal, kill and destroy. "Turn my eyes from worthless things, and give me life through your word." Psalm 119:37
Truth: Exercising in moderation has some value, but spiritual exercise has a more lasting value.
"Exercise thyself rather unto godliness. For bodily exercise profits little, but godliness is profitable unto all things, having promise of the life that now is, and of that which is to come." --1 Timothy 4:7-8
Truth: Starving may give the false impression of control over stress or circumstances, but that is a lie from the devil who comes only to steal, kill and destroy. "Turn my eyes from worthless things, and give me life through your word." Psalm 119:37
Truth: Exercising in moderation has some value, but spiritual exercise has a more lasting value.
"Exercise thyself rather unto godliness. For bodily exercise profits little, but godliness is profitable unto all things, having promise of the life that now is, and of that which is to come." --1 Timothy 4:7-8
"I will never be pretty enough for anyone"
Truth: God made you unique and He loves you. He will help you with changes in your life to help you improve your health and lengthen your life. Choose to love yourself and value yourself by God's standards. Completion as a woman comes from our Creator. "I beseech you, therefore, brethren by the mercies of God that you present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, and that you may prove what is good and acceptable and perfect will of God." -- Romans 12:1-2 NKJV
Truth: God made you unique and He loves you. He will help you with changes in your life to help you improve your health and lengthen your life. Choose to love yourself and value yourself by God's standards. Completion as a woman comes from our Creator. "I beseech you, therefore, brethren by the mercies of God that you present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, and that you may prove what is good and acceptable and perfect will of God." -- Romans 12:1-2 NKJV
The main thing that the lesson today was on was on the passage of Matthew 13:44-46, The Parable of the Hidden Treasure and the Pearl. '"The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field. 'Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it." Matthew 13:44-46. It was talking about how our relationship with Jesus is like the hidden treasure or the pearl and our ED behaviors are "everything he had". When we find that true, intimate relationship with Jesus Christ, we want to go and throw away everything else so we can have Him. Here is an excerpt: "You see the kingdom of heaven, that is, a relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ, is of such value that it is compared with a costly pearl. This intimacy and fellowship with Christ that comes as we enter the kingdom of God is worth forsaking our previous starving, overeating, and purging, etc., to acquire. In reality, we are ridding our lives of worthless things in order to enjoy the precious and costly 'pearl' of the Lord Jesus."
I had to re-write the passage in my own words, and here's what I came up with:
A relationship with my One and only Savior is like a precious piece of treasure that I must be determined to find. When I find it, I hold it close and throw away all my habits of starving and over exercising. Again, my relationship with Jesus is like the most beautiful, elegant pearl I could ever find. When I find that one that is more beautiful than any I have seen, I grab it. I take hold of that intimate relationship. First, I must let go of all my starving and over exercising habits so that I can fully enjoy that relationship with Christ my Savior!!
Ok, so I guess this is the last thing I wanted to mention. My Text Ministry Verse from today:
"The end of a matter is better than it's beginning, and patience is better than pride." Ecc. 7:8. The beginning of our "storm", our hard time, our pain and struggle, isn't always the best. It can start off as horrible as we can imagine. It may get worse before it's finally over, but we have to remember the end is near. We have to remember God works everything 
out. Think for a minute about what Jesus had to go through. His journey was horrible in the beginning. His death on the cross seemed to only get worse. It was pain like we've never felt, inside and out. It was compassion we'll never be able to comprehend. It took patience we'll never be able to obtain. But through His patience and faithfulness, the end was so much better. The beginning may have been horrible, but in the end, He's alive and we receive life through Him. This shows that we have to be patient, trust in Him, and know that the end will be better. I think if our Savior can remain patient and faithful throughout His brutal death, we can manage our tiny struggles here. God knows the end to EVERY beginning. In the end, Jesus always has victory.
out. Think for a minute about what Jesus had to go through. His journey was horrible in the beginning. His death on the cross seemed to only get worse. It was pain like we've never felt, inside and out. It was compassion we'll never be able to comprehend. It took patience we'll never be able to obtain. But through His patience and faithfulness, the end was so much better. The beginning may have been horrible, but in the end, He's alive and we receive life through Him. This shows that we have to be patient, trust in Him, and know that the end will be better. I think if our Savior can remain patient and faithful throughout His brutal death, we can manage our tiny struggles here. God knows the end to EVERY beginning. In the end, Jesus always has victory.
i hope you have a great birthday girl!
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