Today I go back to the clinic. Last time I went was two weeks ago when I got in trouble for loosing 3 pounds and they started to notice my obsession with my workouts.
If you ask me, I know for a fact I've gained the weight back. I mean, I am on the same meal plan with about half the exercise I was doing. I have definitely gained weight. I'm afraid I've gained about 5 pounds and Twister is going to completely flip out!!! I'm trying to brace myself. I am trying to turn my back on the world's definition of beauty. Trying to turn my ears from the lies Twister throws at me. I am trying with all my might to just turn to my Jesus. To chase after my true purpose in life which is to bring Him praise and glory. In Him I find faith like a mountain that can not be shaken. In Him I find the strength to get through the day. In Him I discover joy beyond explanation that can never be taken away. I will stand my ground today. I will stand strong in the mighty power of my Lord.
I am a little anxious about what Bonnie is going to say about my measuring. Which is I'm still measuring everything except one food item at breakfast. She's not going to be happy. In the back of my mind, I'm desperately afraid that they are going to start talking about the treatment center again....I can't let that happen.
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