Wednesday, September 29, 2010

The Continual Struggle

I know it's been a LONG while since I've posted but with school starting back, football season, working, and everything else in between, I've been super busy!

I've been asked a LOT lately by friends and family how I've been doing. I, of course, give the "right answer" and tell them I'm doing good. Am I really? With eating and maintaining my weight, yes, I believe I am. BUT, the ED thoughts are slowly creeping back into my mind. I honestly don't know why. But boy has it been hard not to give into the thoughts! I've had a LOT of fat days lately. I've thought about skipping meals here and there, but haven't. The thoughts of "am I enough" are becoming the theme of my life again, and I HATE it.

Now, I'm not saying all this to depress anyone or try and give myself a pity party. I'm simply showing you, especially those who are struggling with an ED, that it is a CONTINUOUS struggle. A CONTINUOUS fight. And with God, a CONTINUOUS victory. I honestly don't know how I've gotten through these days without giving into Twister. Or maybe I do. Maybe it's my amazing God. He quietly whispers His love to me and somehow it makes me stronger. I realize why I'm here and I realize life is worth living for HiM.

This feeling comes only with an intimate relationship with Christ. If you don't have it, your missing out. I promise you, it will forever be the best decision of your life!



  1. Ily Kaitlyn! You are one of the sweetest and strongest people I know:)

  2. i love you so much are so beutiful and my best freind.never forget that.god is always by your side.I LOVE YOU SO MUCHH!!!

    ~ <3 ~

  3. I know you don't know me, but I found your blog while clicking through here one day while I was bored in class. I ended up reading your entire story. Your story is SO inspirational, and I hope you continue to keep fighting Twister! Stay strong girl!
    :) Shea

  4. Thank you so much for your blog Kaitlyn! You are absolutely BEAUTIFUL!!! You've helped me so much with my ED, even if you didn't know it. Stay strong girl! We can both fight this with God!(:

  5. This is a Christian blog, right? <3