The Continual Struggle

I know it's been a LONG while since I've posted but with school starting back, football season, working, and everything else in between, I've been super busy!

I've been asked a LOT lately by friends and family how I've been doing. I, of course, give the "right answer" and tell them I'm doing good. Am I really? With eating and maintaining my weight, yes, I believe I am. BUT, the ED thoughts are slowly creeping back into my mind. I honestly don't know why. But boy has it been hard not to give into the thoughts! I've had a LOT of fat days lately. I've thought about skipping meals here and there, but haven't. The thoughts of "am I enough" are becoming the theme of my life again, and I HATE it.

Now, I'm not saying all this to depress anyone or try and give myself a pity party. I'm simply showing you, especially those who are struggling with an ED, that it is a CONTINUOUS struggle. A CONTINUOUS fight. And with God, a CONTINUOUS victory. I honestly don't know how I've gotten through these days without giving into Twister. Or maybe I do. Maybe it's my amazing God. He quietly whispers His love to me and somehow it makes me stronger. I realize why I'm here and I realize life is worth living for HiM.

This feeling comes only with an intimate relationship with Christ. If you don't have it, your missing out. I promise you, it will forever be the best decision of your life!

STAY STRONG BEAUTiFULS!!! (: