It seems like forever since I've written on here!I want to first thank you all for your sweet comments, especially to those I don't even know! You are the reason I write this. You are a blessing to me!
Life is going good for me at the moment. While I know that can change in the blink of an eye, I'm learning to embrace the moment right now. Whether it's good or bad, I'm learning to embrace it.
I'm in a relationship now and couldn't be happier. Jesus is my number one love still, but He has given me someone that is beyond special!
When times are good, you should be cheerful; when times are bad, think what it means. God makes them both to keep us from knowing what will happen next." Ecc. 7:14
Twister actually hasn't been around too much lately. I accomplished a very big goal this week when I woke up too late to workout before work. I was ok with it. Not happy about it at all. But Satan and Twister wanted me to freak out and let that little mishap get to me. But I refused! I called on my God and He told me everything was alright, so I listened to Him.
I was suppose to go back to the clinic last week but wasn't able to because of some insurance problems. So I will either go next week or the week after.
I've still been hearing the lies. And at times giving into them. I found out my weight a few weeks ago by accident and freaked out a little, but somehow God gave peace and strength to my worrying heart. He's absolutely amazing and He's the reason I'm able to stand up and fight this disease every single day!
I'm going to end with this quote I heard on Joyce Meyer's show the other morning and convicted me in so many ways. I pray that it speaks to your hearts as much as it spoke to mine!
(paraphrased) "When we talk about ourselves in negative ways, [i.e, i'm fat, ugly, useless, dumb, ect.] we're agreeing with the Enemy [Satan]. But if we would take a positive approach to our outlook on ourselves we'll be agreeing with God and all He thinks about us."
It is amazing to see that you are growing. Being able to except the voice and KNOW it is only a voice and untruth is huge. I was so happy to read you made a seperation...only if for one time..it is a huge accomplishment. I know it is a struggle everday and some days it seems like an all out brawl but YOU WILL make it and YOU WILL be stronger because of it.
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Ms.Susan
Dear Precious Kaitlyn,
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Nothing happens by chance does it?
At 51-years of age and with 3 daughters/1 son, your testimony pierced my heart with my own personal struggle and memories of anorexia. It seems so long ago yet the cause and effects are crystal clear.
I'm a Believer and have a very close and intimate walk with God. My salvation testimony is woven throughout my blog.
You are in my prayers Kaitlyn. I pray that perhaps God will use me to have an influence in your own life. My Anorexia story has never been shared - until now!
God Bless You,
Mrs. Choma
Kaitlyn, i haven't gotten on your blog in a very long time. But i've forgotten how your posts touch me each time i read... you inspire me!! i'm so proud of you and how you have been handling your recovery. and I LOVE YOU! never forget that. i miss our long talks, our scarred meetings, your advice, all of that. your still my bestie! lol... and i also thank you for your text every morning. They make my day no matter how bad it has started out. :)
ReplyDeletewell done on your recovery, it's so hard, I cpmpleatly understand where your coming from, keep it up :)
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I just stumbled upon your blog via the next blog button and I come from a similar situation as you, I am so glad God helped you find recovery from your disease, I have the disease of addiction and alcoholism equally unhealthy and dangerous in my opinion! It builds my faith when I see others who are following a similar trajectory towards a good life through the healing power of God. Check out my page I'm a nerd but feel free to follow me, I'm gonna follow you!
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