Prepared to Fight

Wow do I have a lot to write about!

So last night I went to a big Judgement Journey in GA with my church. It was very scary... I thought the Revelation Walk was pretty scary, it had nothing on this. There is no way to describe how realistic it was, I just can't even put it into words. Last night I could hardly sleep, I felt so confused about my salvation, I did not want to be left behind after the Rapture. It's very hard for me to admit this, but I thought I was saved on June 24, 2004, I wasn't. I don't think I really put my life and my trust in God's hands. I think there has always been a part of me that has tried to control my life. Like Daddy told me today, I think it was my mind that lead me to be saved and not my heart. I tried to be a "good Christian" I started basing it on what I did and how good I could be. Then Twister came into my life and he totally took over. He controlled me.... This morning I accepted Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior of my life! Bro. Frank's message this morning was on Salvation... at the time of the invitation song my heart was pounding and I knew what I needed to do. I needed to give my life totally over to God and let Him be my Lord, and not Twister. These past few years I haven't really been living, I've been barely surviving. It's time to live for the Man who died for me!


Since Wednesday I had really gotten back with Twister. I was barely eating, I was exercising, I was lying, I was cheating, I was back in his arms. I'm tired of it, I want to live again and live the life God has designed for me... I know I have so much more to do. I don't know how much longer I have on this earth and I want to live it for Him and not for my body or Twister. I laid it at God's feet... I'm ready to be still and let Him fight for me.. It's time to live again! I am now prepared to fight what Twister has to through at me, I am going to hide in the shadow of God's wings and let Him do it for me. I know it's still going to be hard, but I have a new prespective. I'm ready to get on with my life... although I know I will still struggle, like I've said before I will stumble and fall down but with Him I will not be moved.