So I'm doing much better today.
I did horrible these last two weeks though. I honestly relapsed...but I'm back on track now. I don't know exactly what got me totally back on track though. I guess alot of it was I just was tired of feeling tired and feeling like I was going to pass out all the time. These last two weeks I was so consumed with how many calories I would allow myself to eat each day and counting the calories and trying to not be hungry, all of the stuff that I used to be consumed with. It's been very hard to get back on track, but I'm trying to let God carry me through. I let Twister (along with Satan) lead me down the wrong path and all I did was fall. But I'm trying to let God pick me back up. It's been hard and I'm still really struggling, but I'm trying to let God fight for me. I keep reminding myself of Exodus 14:14, "The Lord will fight for you. You need only to be still."
Tomorrow is Dr. Day... I go to Dr. Vance and to the clinic. I'll be leaving kind of early so I don't know if I'll post before or not. But I know it's not going to go very well. I know I've probably lost weight and I'm just hoping it's not too much to where they decide I need to go to the treatment center. I'm very nervous...but I know God is here with me. I know He won't leave me.
Oh Kaitlyn being "still" is the hardest thing to do in this crazy world. But the Lord says it more time than one in the Bible. Be still and know that I am God. I pray that you will find that time to be still with God.
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