Very Lucky

As you have guessed, I was not admitted back into the hospital yesterday. But that's the good news.
I lost almost 7lbs. Yes, 7lbs in one week. I had to loose at least 4 to be in the hospitalization range. 75% and below of my expected weight for height is hospitalization range. I am at 73%. They didn't admit me because my Dr. is going out of town this week and also I am going to see a psychiatrist tomorrow to see about being put on some medication and they really want me to meet with her. So, I got very lucky yesterday.
But, there is still a chance I could be admitted next week. The thing is, I have to be above the 75% next week for them not to. I'm not exactly sure how many pounds equal a % or whatever, but I do know that's quite a bit of weight to gain in a week. And also because Bonnie wants me to slowly get back on my nutrition plan because there is a risk of re-feeding problems. She thinks a lot of the weight I lost could be fluids, they think I'm very dehydrated. So, I could gain enough weight back, but then again I may not.
I had to go get some labs done after my appointment because loosing almost 7lbs in one week is a major concern.

Some of you may not believe me, but I think I've had about enough of this. I really think I am ready to get rid of this and live the life God has planned for me. I know a lot of times I talk big but don't really practice what I preach, but I think this time is different. I've been thinking about something and it also played a part in my verse today, let me show you.

See... Twister keeps attacking me with not being good enough, skinny enough, perfect enough, sick enough, just not being enough of anything. But I've realized that my Savior, Jesus Christ is enough for me. At times I don't feel like it, but I'm praying that He will keep reminding me that.
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."-Jesus, in 2 Corinthians 12:9. This is one of my favorite verses in the whole Bible and I have been clinging to it since yesterday. He said that His grace is enough. His love is enough. What He did on the cross for me is enough. HE is enough for me.

I'm not going to lie, today has been very hard. Twister was so excited to know how much weight I lost and he wants to loose more. But, I've been trying to rely on God. I'm slowly eating and getting back on my nutrition plan. It's hard, very hard. I'm not at all saying that I am completely better now and I'm back to my old self. No way....but I'm willing to try. At times it's very hard to lean on God, but I know I need to. I'm going to do the best I can.

THANK YOU to all of you who prayed for me yesterday. I think God is definitely giving me another chance. I love you all!!!!!!