Today is the day. I have done horrible this week and Mama thinks I have probably lost enough weight to be put back into the hospital. I'm not sure though.
I honestly don't know whats going to happen, but I know God will be with me no matter what. I have been far away from Him lately, but I've been coming back a little bit. I don't know if tonight I will be sleeping in my own bed, or if I'm going to be laying in a hospital bed. But what I do know for sure is that God is going to be with me in either place. I know He still loves me. It's taken a lot of convincing on my part, but I know He still wants me. I'm not praying that I don't go into the hospital, and I'm not praying that I do. I'm just praying that He will allow me to accept whatever happens and trust in Him.
I know I have to make an effort and I have to try. Someone that is really helping me through this gave me a great quote last night: "God helps those whom helps themselves." I can't get ask God to take this away and heal me and make me healthy just like that. I have to try.
Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers today. If I don't post tomorrow, you know what happened.
Uncle Ricky and I are praying. God does love you and there is nothing absolutely nothing that you can do to be separated from His love.
ReplyDeleteKeep fighting! Satan is not the ruler of your life!!! If you do have to go into the hospital then you can accept that this is how God is going to help you "be still in Him"
I love you!!!
I am praying for you girl! I love you so much and I know God will lift you up in his arms and comfort all your hard feelings!
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